I was surprised to come back from vacation and find that my tomato plants had doubled in size. Obviously I knew, on some level, that growth doesn’t stop just because I am not there to witness it. Or water it.
Nevertheless, it shocked me to see their tall and leafy forms sitting higher than the window ledge. What were once two spindly seedlings have since grown into two vibrant and strong plants. Soon I’m betting there will be juicy tomatoes awaiting a sprinkle of salt and a dash of pepper, quickly consumed.
I started to wonder if I had been here, would I have noticed their changes? Their growth? Certainly my absence made their growth more apparent to me. I hope I would’ve been equally impressed by their development had it been a part of my day to day routine. I honestly thought I would come back to the same two plants.
I didn’t think they would grow so much without my care and attention.
It’s so easy to get wrapped up in the minutia of life. I find myself hyper focusing on details or the future and never fully enjoying my time in the present. This vacation was the first time I made a decided effort to live day-to-day. We had a rough outline, but each day was flexible with gaps for spontaneity. It was one of the most relaxing vacations I’ve ever had.
Looking inward I realized that I have been carrying a big ball of stress. Stress of finances, stress of friendships, stress of achieving ambitions, stress of needing to be successful. None of these are new to anyone, I’m sure, but it was surprising to me just how one week of letting go and not trying to control anything, completely changed my mindset.
Following is not something that comes naturally to me.
From a young age I was encouraged to be independent and praised for taking care of myself. That independent streak developed into a stubbornness. While I do have a surprisingly accurate gut instinct, my independence and stubbornness has made it difficult for me to rely on others. And it’s exhausting, feeling like you have to be in control 24/7.
But the thing is, I would love to give up control and follow. I just don’t know how.
God calls us to follow him. We are instructed to give him control of our lives.
My dad has often said the phrase, “Let go and let God.” Until now, it is something I just shrugged off. Sure I can let go…kinda….and God can take care of any problem for me…sort of….but if I want quick results then I really should just do it myself.
And that thought alone makes me laugh.
There is a DIY (Do It Yourself) craze that has hit the world. It seems that everywhere I turn, people are repurposing pallets and hacking IKEA. And while I do some DIY projects, there are just as many that I’ve dismissed and would never even attempt.
Because I am not a professional.
Because I don’t have the right tools.
Because I don’t have a certain skill set.
Because I know my limitations.
I can’t craft a table from a pallet, but somehow I’ve fallen in the trap of thinking that I can navigate my life and fix all of my problems and be my own solution. Just don’t make me use a reciprocal saw.
It’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to rely on others. We should place our worries in God’s hands. He is the only one who has any power. It is so easy to deceive ourselves into thinking we are just as capable as He is.
It’s funny, the things that God uses to remind us of his presence. Reflecting on the growth of two tomato plants became the realization that I need to let Him do His work. My controlling nature can’t make plants grow or seasons change. I need to “Let go and Let God.”
In a world of do-it-yourself-ers, I need to become a TGY- Trust God Yourself.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
It is through His grace that I am able to achieve anything. So no more worrying about controlling things that I am not able to control. Less negative & more positive. Time to refocus on the many blessings in my life.
A friend posted this on facebook and I wanted to share it with y’all: 4 Things God Wants You to Remember When Life it Hard